Tuesday, October 18, 2011

I have my own way to go…



WTF!!! I still have 80 sketches waiting me for sketch and I still have time at here with my bloggie.
I’m lagging with my ideas now!!
I’m still not feeling so well but I still need to face in front my ass assignments to juice out my hell dry brain.
I force myself to start thinking!!!

Think-ing, think-ing, think-ing….
Till I’m cry… (In my heart)

I consult with my parents again.
They want me to leave my dream and follow how nicely are the way they set to me…
I know how they love me and I do really love them so much…

BUT….
I have my own way to go…

A way that I can decide by myself…
A way that I admit by myself…
A way that makes me no regret for…
A way that makes me have motion to continue…
A way that no matter how hard are but I still feel happy with my way…
A way that really belong to me!!

When I was kid, I love drawing and coloring and you said to me that I should be more attention for my Mandarin subject because I was studied in a Kindergarten and Primary English School.
I am studied so hard to understand although I actually not interested at all at Mandarin.
Thank you for forcing me to learned Mandarin.
I know Mandarin from zero until I can read, listen and type mandarin and I not a banana anymore.

When I was on primary, I played a lot with Barbie Dolls.
Barbie Dolls is my besties when I was small.
They heard my heart voice and accompany me when I’m lonely.
I’m lonely because I just the only girl in my family.
Peoples said that I actually lucky because I can get what I want.
Ya!!! I get what I want!!!

But what I get was actually only outside happiness…
And you said to me that I should pay more attention on Mathematics because I quite weak in this subject.
I follow what you advised to me and I get a good result now.
Thanks for teaching me a lot of things…

When I was sixteen, I want to choose Art Stream for my studies and you said to me that Economy Stream is much better than Art Stream.
Okay… I followed what you said....
Thank you for let me know what is the economy and account are.
At least I learn the basic of economy and accounting.

When I was seventeen, I choose Multimedia Design as my course and you asked me, “Why? This way is so hard to go.”
I answered you patiently and explain how my bloody heart to this course was.

And NOW!!

You called me to give up as a pre-designer and be who you actually you want me to be!!!

Now I was eighteen enough and I have my own way…
I just want be who I am…
A girl name Chency who has hers own rules…

I know a designer is always been judge by others but actually you don’t know “we” use our heart to fulfill them although maybe sometime designers are not been admit with.
But!! Once a designer still have the “heart”…
He/she still will continue their way as a designer.

Maybe future I will cry to home and hug you because I have been scolded or didn’t admit my artwork by my costumers…
But I still believe that my heart is still bloody as a designer on future.

I will show you my way and you make will proud of me one day…
Keep healthy and stay tune together with me.

I still love you(s) as a daughter forever and ever.  ♥♥♥


1 comment:

  1. its okay to have low salary , its okay to have a small house , its okay to live moderate but at least you are happy with what you doing because its what you love the most . Nothing can beat that babe .

    Follow your dream not your parent's. You make me cry by how you respect and thank ur parents for teaching u lotsa thing but now its time to rebel XD and start doing what you love . haha

    Anything can let us know aitee . don keep it inside . Im not in U1 i cant accompany you always so you have to take good care of urself . <3 winn

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